name: sam.
alias(es): aiguma, undead friday.
age: is but a number.
gender: is but a label.
height: really really...medium.
hair: chocolate.
music: literally anything.
books: stephen king.
hobbies: look around.
fetish: drama. i live to act.
personality: angst.
angst: closet angster.
arts: yes, please.

eating >> nothing.
drinking >> air.
writing >> casschan.
thinking >> about travis.
listening to >> "comfortable liar" by chevelle
wishing >> for travis to call?

. : : inmates : : .
maduin - 1 - 2 - 3
haiyaku - 1 - 2 - 3
noelle - 1
william - 1 - 2 - 3
me - 1 - 2
cassandra** - 1
courtney - 1
alex - 1
minerva - 1
uriel - 1

. : : cliques : : .
:: imperfect
>> I © STARBUCKS
My Song :: Bleed American
enjoy the /silence/
elementary Å
» MDY


 

† entitled † alone. when? Wednesday, June 11, 2003 alone in my solitary corner of the universe, i wonder. is there anyone else alive out there? is there someone thinking the exact same thing as i am? and if there isn't...just what on earth am i living for? aion gazed out at the rain @ 11:03 p.m. † entitled † contagion. when? Monday, June 9, 2003 perhaps yes maybe no caught indecision pseudo-contagion anonymous and where to find the cure? make up your mind lie to me cry to me fight for me die for me don't leave me here withering victim of your disease your contagion i think it's...slowly coming back to me. aion gazed out at the rain @ 11:12 a.m. † entitled † almost starless. when? Sunday, June 8, 2003 wow. so i'm not completely useless when it comes to the writing world for today, eh? subtlely eating pomegranate and seductive smile over fruit's tender flesh i smiled and you tore my heart out but i did not protest your voice a whisper of hushed summer breeze i remembered not those words but your faceted ocean eyes-- almost starless save for me *sigh* ... makes me think more and more of him. aion gazed out at the rain @ 09:47 a.m. † entitled † friend. when? Saturday, June 7, 2003 yes. i...have to vent. i have this friend. she's the most absolute wonderful person i know...always so caring, generous, outwardly flirtatious (even though she'll deny it to no end -_-)...and never hesitant to be a bitch when she has to be. she's always got guys drooling at her feet...whether it's her stunning good looks or her extreme tangibility and down-to-earth charm that's winning them over. and no matter what, i... ...i find myself paling in comparison to this incredibly awesome individual. i really don't know what else to say. she knows exactly who she is, and...well...i only hope she won't think any less of me for bragging about her. i...well.... *sigh* don't know what else to say. honestly. aion gazed out at the rain @ 10:29 a.m. † entitled † phone talk. when? Friday, June 6, 2003 wrote an entry similar to this in my actual diary, entitled stupid girl. the link can be seen above. anyway. i spent my entire night thinking, debating on whether or not i would call him. to call or not to call? hmn. i tried bugging mick for his phone number, but that turned up fruitless. alas. however, after a little clever deduction, i managed to come up with his phone number. that's cool. we talked for over an hour--until my brother wanted to use the phone to talk to his girlfriend. most of it was either spent whining about "carrie and adam" or me picking at his brain like a frickin' hen in a feedlot. ah, well. at least i understand him--as well as myself--a little better. however, his superiority complex is a bit frightening, i fear. i hope to help him overcome it...by god, if i can.. i is bad girl. i bought three more CDs tonight. chevelle's "wonder what's next", foo fighters' "one by one", and john mayer's "room for squares" are now my most recent additions. that makes...let's see...my god. seven CDs in one week. no..six days. that's an average of 1 and 1/7 CDs a day. my god. i feel like such a big spender... anyway. i am tired after working such a long day (and have another one to look forward to tomorrow, i fear) and desire sleep. god knows i have so much catching up to do online, however. oh well. i shall catch up. ciao, i suppose. till another time. aion gazed out at the rain @ 09:41 p.m. † entitled † the music scene. when? Thursday, June 5, 2003 yeah, so i've been on a cd binge for the last week. in fact, my last four purchases have been made within the last...oh...five days. they were as follows: staind - break the cycle staind - 14 shades of grey garbage - garbage cold - year of the spider ... which is actually quite funny, seeing as i'm currently listening to one of my brother's most recently acquired CDs by a band entitled smile empty soul. and yes, that's what casschan's blog is named simply because we both loved the name. kickass band, by the way. at around 5:00, i left the house with my dog (mugsy) and sat around at the school. i put staind's song "epiphany" on repeat and stared up at the overcast sky, reminiscing about days and years gone by...and of the ones to come. my obsession grows with every passing moment. has he thought about me? will he ever think about me? i wonder what he's doing right...now. infatuation has become obsession. so where do i run now? aion gazed out at the rain @ 10:09 p.m. † entitled † the silence is what kills me. when? Thursday, June 5, 2003 yes. i grew ever tired of staring at the bunny rabbit that i drew, cute and cuddly as he was. *sadistic smirk* what can i say, eh? all your insults and your curses make me feel like i'm not a person. . . as i sit here at the computer, i have a wonderful, beauteous view of some stormclouds. the sky is now overcast and wonderful. grey. grey like my eyes. i love it. your faces so unclear... occasional lyrics running through my head, i suppose i've nothing left to do between the intermittent loads of laundry other than to sit here and marvel at the beauty of the evening... and the perils undoubtedly to come at work tomorrow night. god help us all. aion gazed out at the rain @ 05:20 p.m.